I feel like...

I've failed myself.  I lost so much motivation in the last 2 months. 
I will admit that I let emotional stresses get to me.  I let these stresses take over me and I found myself sleeping more and not getting out of the house much.  I would only leave the house to do the things that I felt obligated to do... work and family things. 

What I need to do is shake it off.

I am making a promise to myself tonight...
Tomorrow I am going to wake up with a positive attitude and I'm going to take full advantage of the whole day.  I will have an excellent day at work, then I will run some errands that I have been putting off for a while and then I will work out. 
I will then keep repeating this everyday... making sure I make the best and most of each day. 
I can not and will not break this promise, not again. 

OK now off to have a good nights rest. 

6 days into 2012...

We are now 6 days into 2012 and I have yet to start my healthy habits again...
I don't know what happened to me... when and why did I fall off the wagon?

Must get back on it... get back on track.
I started with cleansing negative people out of my life... maybe that will help me .

What do you do to get motivated?

Will?... Will?.... WILL?....

Oh where, oh where has my WILL POWER gone? 
OK, so since November 17th... my diet and exercise routine has gone down hill.  I know that it's because I have been lazy.  I can try to hide behind my excuse (I was in RI, then it was Thanksgiving and right after my birthday celebrations and then some family issues...), but I have to admit that I am just being lazy and I let all these things take control. 
I have to shake this off... I need to get back to that place where I was ubber motivated to workout and eat healthy.  I need to do this no matter what... not the Holidays, not family visiting and not all the holiday parties can get in my way. 
This is vow to myself that tomorrow I will start and get back on the my journey to healthy and I will feel happier again.
I will find my WILL POWER!

I believe a unique core self is born into every human being; the result of millennia of environment and heredity combined in an unpredictable way that could never happen before or again.--Gloria Stienem

Positive Affirmations are so important for me during this process.  I have to learn to refocus when I am deviated from my journey... and getting back to reading positive quotes and phrases help remind me of why I am doing this and what I am worth.
Rejection is something that [I don't think] not one person likes to feel... the worse is when it keeps happening to you [consecutively].  I can't help but feel that I am not good enough- no matter how untrue that is.   The truth is the person who rejects me is not rejecting me because of me, it's because of himself, it's his problem [not mine]... it really has nothing to do with me.  These people, I believe, are challenges or road blocks that will give me that jolt to wake me up and make me work a little bit harder to becoming the better person that I can be.  These challenges will help prepare me for the person that will value and love me the way we deserve to be valued and loved.

Some affirmations:

• From now on I will only surround myself by people that value me and truly care for me.
• I will believe that I am worthy of someones time.
• I know that I deserve love and I accept it now.
• When I believe in myself, so will others.
• I choose love, joy and freedom, open my heart and allow wonderful things to flow into my life.

The thing is this journey that I am on is not just about my physical changes, it's also (and more importantly) about my emotional and mental changes-- which are the most difficult to work on.

Gracias. Obrigada. Thank You. Grazie. Gratias Agimus Tibi.

I have so much to be thankful for this year and especially the last few months.  I am so thankful for all of the support that I have received as I’ve tried to make changes in my life.   Through this journey not only have a found  new ways to be happier and healthier, but I’ve also learned who my friends really are.

I am thankful for this year because I have learned so much about myself.

Now off to do my Thanksgiving workout!  It’s been a little over a week since I’ve been to the gym… great day to get back!

Irony

An outcome of events contrary to what was, or might have been, expected.

This week is what I would consider to be a flop after I wrote the blog about not being complacent. The Irony.  I guess there will be those days when you are not on your “A game”.  What is important is to acknowledge it and get back in the game.  My work out with Wesley today was intense… it was all strengthen/ endurance exercises... and it was all fast.  I was sweating buckets! 
My workout also showed that I’ve slacked this week… he could tell.  So I have to push myself for better and more

complacent:

adjective

1.

pleased, especially with oneself or one's merits, advantages, situation, etc., often without awareness of some potential danger or defect; self-satisfied.

2.

pleasant; complaisant

Goal is to NOT become COMPLACENT... Always push for more.

So every time I workout, I try to push myself to the next level.  There are still somethings that I struggle with [anything that has to do do with upper body strength].   Every time I work that area out, I just try to do the best that I can and again try to push myself to do one more...

I am up to 15 minutes of jogging with good control of my breathing... that is a big accomplishment for me.  So happy.

So far I've been working out with these trainers and it has been so beneficial to me, I am learning so much and they help me push myself to the next level. 

One of the guys that I train with is always saying to me "Don't be complacent..."  That has become my mantra. 

I can't wait to check my measurements, weight, body fat analysis and have my fitness test... I hope to see some significant improvements.